'Cause When I Look You're Never There

Okay, yeah, definitely a crush. Man, it's irritating me that he hasn't been online in ages . . . I know he's taking a break from CbN and STing, but that doesn't mean he has to take a break from IMs and what not! Or, well, I guess it kind of does, because people are cunts over IMs too. In fact, the same people who harass him on site harass him over AIM, I guess, so it's understandable. But I miss him! I want him to be online, to be snarky with, to make me laugh, to laugh at my jokes even though I'm not funny. It sucks when he isn't around - and it sucks worse times like now, when there's no one online that I want to talk to, and nothing to do but update my blog. Alas! What's a girl to do? Fret and whine, I suppose, or at least that's what I'm doing. Anyway, I know he has crap for a computer and shit for a connection, so that's probably part of the problem too. Stupid not-working-the-way-it's-supposed-to technology!

Anyway. Went to the State Fair over the weekend with the girls, the in-laws and a few other random relatives. It would have sucked if I'd had to spend the whole day with the in-laws, but instead I got to escape and go on fun rides with the adolescents (tweenies, I think they're calling them these days. Thank you so much, Olsen twins and Hilary Duff), and then the three of them, Morgen and I went to play games on the midway. My four year old is a shark, let me tell you! She did better at the midway games than I did, which was awesome to see. The only way it could have been better is if we'd gone in the evening instead of the morning - there's very little that's prettier (and scarier, and more magical, and . . .) than a fair with all the lights on. Elephant ears taste better and the rides are scarier, and everything's just . . . more. We always used to go at night when I was a kid.

Yesterday, we had a family picnic - I posted pictures complete with snarky captions on TC and Ames said she really enjoyed the thread. That was cool to hear. It's really there for K'wyn, but of course everyone can look at it if they so desire. It would be silly to put it there if I didn't expect them to. So, family picnic. It was relatively painless, even fun. It was the last day for the pool to be open, and I think they stopped cleaning it on Saturday or so. But the lifeguards were all like, yeah, whatever, it's the last day when kids wanted to bring in floaties and kickboards and so on. They're all going back to school today, be it high school or college - yay for them. Morgen's swim teacher is away at Eastern now, though I still could swear she's 16 at the oldest, by appearance, anyway. Obviously she's older, but still! Man, with how young she looks and her cute, squeaky little voice, I'd never put her at old enough to be in college.

The girls' garb is done! But for the elastic in the waists and ankles of the pants, anyway. The outfits are so cute - I'll make a couple normal tunics as well, for Friday and Sunday, but their clothes for Saturday are adorable. Now to finish mine - hopefully I won't screw up the sleeves (again, for the third time) when I put them back on. I really want it all to be done, and then I can just make a couple tunics and dig up some of my old pants or something for Friday and Sunday. G wants me to take a shire picture, so I have to remember to bring my tripod and not just my camera. Speaking of camera stuff, Erich got my film camera fixed! I'm so excited. And Jerry's asking me what kind of lens I want for Christmas - since eventually, I want to set up a studio and do my own pictures of the girls (and probably Brandon, and Zoe, and . . .), I'll look into what people usually use for that. Maybe I'll end up with a light or something instead - that'd be awesome. My other choice is a new computer - or at least a new hard drive. I really hope for a whole new computer, honestly, though I'd probably go for the camera stuff if I had to choose between the two. It'd come in far more handy, after all, as I'm far more likely to use it to make money than I am to use a new hard drive or . . . whatever . . . for anything other than fun.

On a random musical note, I'm loving Sondre Lerche. Man, he's brilliant. His voice is pretty different, to my very American ears, and the guitar, and the lyrics . . . just lovely. The crush who shall not be named introduced me to him, and . . . yeah. Also digging on Rod Stewart/Faces and Roxy Music currently (always), because they make me think of him. Come back online, silly boy! I miss you. :(