Frustration

Hurray for blatant favoritism and lack of subtlety. It makes everything easier, yes it does . . . because it’s always best to disgruntle as much of any given base as you’re pleasing. I know what’s going on, and some of the way things are being handled rubs me severely in the wrong way. “Oh, you don’t play a Euthie? Fuck off, we don’t care about you. We’re busy making sure all the Euthies transfer.” Yeah. And I’m staff, so I can only imagine how the rest of the non-Euthie players feel. You know – the ones who have no (or little) idea what’s going on, though I’m sure they all know pretty exactly what’s happening now, hence my mention of subtlety. There’s a whole lot of background staff-y type stuff to be done yet, and now some of us will be fielding questions until the cows come home. You know, those of us who don’t know what we should be writing yet, or who we’re supposed to be working with. Needless to say, this isn’t a way of starting a new venture that strikes me as ideal, even aside from server crashes and the like. Yay. For the record? I have a pet character, a favorite, that I really care about too – one that I’ve been playing for years. I’m willing to give her up for this, if necessary, and I’m not stifling the creativity of the rest of staff by insisting that she be moved to the new setting (site, whatever) as is, or else. It makes me want to bang my head against the wall; that would be as rewarding as working around this huge thing that no one wants to talk about, in some respects. And yet, I have a feeling it’ll happen. And I’ll staff Changeling if that’s what we end up with, because I can’t staff Mage around such a thing – both ethically and creatively, it’s a killing blow.

Anyway. I’m home today, huzzah! I can sit here in front of the computer and wait for people to message me, or try to write for the new site (but I don’t know what I’m supposed to be working on! We’re not organized, at all), or I can go do housework. I’m guessing it’ll be the former that ends up happening.