Baking, Stress and Denial

So, again, what I think (and take the time to post) in the ST/Staff forums on CbN gets ignored in favor of someone else’s post full of more vitriol – though, to be honest, it was calm and reasonable coming from Ryan. I agree with all his points and when I read it before he posted, it was even calmer and more reasonable . . . but then he added stuff that he didn’t have me read first. Regardless, everything to do with CbN sucks right now. K’wyn and Kai quit, Whit’s been alienated for months (and still pouring work into the site, I might add, which is awesome on him), Corey’s getting there, Object . . . I don’t really know about him. Ryan’s . . . well, he’s Ryan, and that leave Rck and me, with Rck asking me what we should do, because I’m the remaining staffer with a relatively even head (and temper) and seniority. Everyone else, pretty much, has taken their ball and gone home. I don’t know if we should just let site implode (we have $200 or so in a paypal account from both players and staff) or what. I really don’t want CbN to go away. It’s the only place I really enjoy playing (although goodness knows, there hasn’t been much play lately), and I’ve made a lot of friends there; I hate the idea of losing contact with them like I did with Jaz or Panthera or my other friends from Toronto when that site died. Chicago’s okay and all, but the handful of people there that I made characters to play with are online at different times than I am, or their chars don’t like mine, or . . . yeah. And there’s nowhere else that I’ve found to play Mage in a good, reasonable way.

On a side note, amusing to me: I programmed K’wyn’s cell number into my phone so that if she calls me, my phone’ll play a tonal version of All the Small things by Blink182. If Kai calls, it’ll play We Will Rock You by Queen. My phone, even though it’s only a land line and a cheapie cordless, is awesome.

I guess, if CbN really is dying, it’ll give me an excuse to find a nWoD site and learn that system better; the problem with that theory is the vast majority of the nWoD sites are Vampire and Mortal only. Which is fine, except . . . Vampire is far from my favorite game. I’m a Mage kind of girl, and that’s what I want to play – a mage, a consor (or whatever nWoD calls them) or something like that. I made a nWoD version of my favorite mage ever to play one on one with my hubby as we learn, but it’s been so long since I played TT, I’m not sure I remember how. I just remember people getting irritated with me when I was being descriptive and wordy, but then I was playing with people that are creative in entirely different ways than the writing one. Although, now that I’ve talked to Whit . . . we have a new idea, and I have a proposal to write.

Today is my day off from baking, although tomorrow I start on cookies. I love baking, I love Autumn, I love holidays. There’s no stress, really! (I’m lying my ass off.)